I have been to lunch with tha family. It was not too bad, I am glad I made it. It makes it easier when there is a goegeous 2 year old in the family.

Thnaks for your prayers Veiled. I am praying too right now. And thatnks for your thoughts Jen.

His mother and sister has been in contact with him this afternoon and they were confident he was quite stable. But my sister who sprung him (and suffers from depression) is quite traumatised, angry and is feeling deeply for me. So she has felt the need to contact him for answers. Not understanding that it is just too soon for anyhting like that, plus failing to realise he probably just can't handle that right now. He has reacted in a fairly dramatic way, calling his mother hysterically.

I am so very worried about his mental and physical well being. I know he must be feeling a lot of shame and guilt right now. At least the man I know would be. But not sure how much of him is left in there anyway.

There is so much info that I have left out of this forum that fills some gaps with horrendous information. It may come out on here in time, soon, or I may never feel secure enough to share, even if you all don't even know who we are. Some of it is quite shameful. And dealng with that is hard enough, let alone being judged for it. This is a hell of a tangent, but I have found with every mental health practitioner we have dealt with (for both hubby and myself) who we have told the full story to, they have changed their tack after they are told in such a way that it is obvious they are judging. It's almost like you can tell they are not as willing to help because we are suddenly evil in their eyes.. Yeh, tough story, maybe one day....

I am so very weary and emotionally drained right now I think I will go lay down and sleep if I can....