No Jim, that isn't what I meant. What I mean is that he feels like such a bastard for cheating that he considers self harm or worse.

I do not think the cheating was merely something silly. Far from it. I am crushed. And that is also why I am so confused that I still feel so much love for him.

I will do my best to look after myself, thanks Jim.

I hope you are all really enjoying the break and that you had a lovely Christmas. I particulaly hope Evie is having a good time and that you and Kathy are enjoying some rest.