Herc,


I think that the fear comes from the thoughts of being totally alone(after your mom is gone.) Not to many people like being alone, so it's scary for you.

You are also going through a lot of emotional things with her, her illness, and your daughter being back in your life again. You are in a whirlwind of emotions.

We tend to look at the negative side of things, or we wait for the other shoe to drop. We are always waiting for the bad to happen, so much so, that we fail to see the good things that come our way.

Weather you know it or not, this will be your time to give back to your mom. Time that she gave to you growing up, you can give back and make her comfortable and help her with her problems. It will be hard, but I have faith that you can do this.

Try to look for the rainbow, instead of the clouds....