Thanks Tammy. You have the very same attitude as all of my loved ones around me. Strangely though, the anger thing is something I have only felt fleetingly a couple times so far. I think I moved through denial in wanting to forgive him, then I had to tell myself, "He does not want you anymore." and so now I am in distraction mode.

I am keeping as busy as I can with as much as I can handle for now. I am even going out on the town with friends tonight for New Years Eve. It will be hard, but what else am I going to do?

I am fairly convinced this is what was meant to happen, so I just want to keep moving forward. For now I can mamage to do that, so I shall. I suspect I may fall in a heap at some point soon, but until then, I am limping along. Very glad to be on holidays from work for the moment, but also looking forward to going back in a week to try to get on with my life and start fresh.

As far as the business goes, I really don't care right now. As I see it, nothing will happen that will do me over that I can't sort out with a good lawyer. So if it comes to that let it happen. I can't handle the anxiety of going down there right now anyway. So I still have not been in contact with him at all. I just can't.

If his new "thing" thinks she is getting her hands on any of it, she has another thing coming. She may not realise I am an intelligent, professional woman who could squash her like a bug if I wanted. Whatever. To be honest, if someone is sort of looking after him, that's probably better anyway. I can't believe I think that. The thing that hurts is her kids. He is probably all fun with them and talks to them etc. That cuts me. We were planning on starting to try for a baby later this year....