Kathy, the hardest part is now over for you.... in that you acknowledge the problem. Well done and now you may just be open to actually finding some resolve to what you feel. Your feelings are natural, not unnatural. I agree with you though, in that you must put all what you know professionally aside and listen to a therapist that suits your personality, so you can heal and not obscure yourself with your professional knowledge. I say that because those with the knowledge typically are not as open to being helped, though you have just endured that and learnt it isn't helping you. Well done Kathy and your starting the road to your own healing process.