Today my life took an unexpected turn that has thrown me into a very strong tail spin. I am not quite sure what set me off----well actually I do. Just don't want to discuss it right now. But it has frightened me. This has popped up out of nowhere. My issue is something that I have felt before but NEVER mentioned to anyone ever! This is a very scarey feeling and goes to a lack of control of my life. I feel I am loosing touch with what I am doing. I am frightened beyond words.

I am scared that if I say the words---it will make this true! God help me, I dont know if I could handle this one. I can barely breathe I'm so terrified! And what do I tell Mom. She keeps asking me questions and I do n ot want to open my mouth right now. At least she is watching the football game so it will keep her busy for a while.

Today is not going to be a very good one.