I just had my trauma anniversary on January 4th. I was also away from home, in a different country and had a job interview on that day!! I was really worried I was not going to be able to handle it. On the actual day I was able to get through my interview sufficiently to be hired, go through a busy airport and fly home on the plane, all in the same day, without freaking out. That's something I honestly never thought I would be able to do, EVER. I'm actually stunned because I totally thought I would be incapable of doing anything that day. Last year I was hallucinating and puking on my anniversary. But then again, last year I had only begun to work on my trauma too...

I did crash from all the stress, but it wasn't until the day after the anniversary. And actually, WOW, I just realized now, I didn't really have many more nightmares or trauma-related stuff when I was crashing. Mostly I was just tired and stressed from all the activities and travelling, and I was sad because last year on my anniversary my brother was with me, taking care of me, and he is now deceased. But it wasn't exactly trauma related, just stress from overload and some grief over my brother.