I am a little confused. I do not have date related anniversaries and had no idea others thought that they "had" to have them.

Anyway even after much hard work I really feel I am as "over" my rape and kidnapping as anyone could possibly be and I am very well adjusted with it really now. I have no issues speaking about it. I do not get where I need recovery time on this topic. It is really just something that sucked that happened now. I just really do not have the same fear of him as he is far far away so even that is really gone due to changes I made.

Thing is with this one I would fall ill at a certain time of year. I am ill in the worst way for over a month, complete full blown PTSD. I get here and experience my first fall and it happens then. Being the Northern move it kicked in faster (season change). After shrink time and therapy it comes out it is an environmental cue. Leaves brown and red.

Now if I am well adjusted over this why would I still have it?

I understand my Summer collapses as well I have two traumas and only processed one. One is hard since I am partially the cause of it, the other I am just now getting into.

So I guess I am asking why would I still relapse during anniversary even though something is throughly worked through and I accept it for what it is? Just the nature of PTSD and what PTSD is?