batgirl, I read your post last night as I was cooling off from my therapist appt. I was frustrated and angry at the seemingly over-simplified idea that becoming aware of my feelings was going to help me do CPR. Truthfully, the idea is threatening. I don't want to feel those feelings. They are painfully intense and overwhelming. It's difficult for me to admit that simple emotions are causing my symptoms. Until I deal with them, I am going to continue living this nightmare.

Sharing your experience helped clarify and affirm what was becoming clear to me.