I have a few safe places, the desert in Australia, the beach where I grew up, and being at sea, but the safest place of all for me is the meeting room where I had my councelling for the past three years, I have a photo of it on my computer. It was a really calming place yet I went to hell and back in there. I close my eyes and picture the layout of the room and how its decorated and what pictures are on the walls. Sometimes I picture my phycologist talking gently to me and reassuring me. Best of luck, you will get there but its a long and slow road, be patient with yourself.