Hi Lostgirl,

Welcome to the forum. Its good that you've found us but its better that you are seeking treatment and recognise that you have been traumatised. Early intervention is, without doubt, your best strategy in fighting stress from trauma. Keep with us on your journey, the support you will find here will benefit you and it would be great to see a positive outcome from your motivation to heal. Be kind to yourself and patient. You didn't acquire the trauma overnight and it may take a while to heal but you need to allow yourself to do that. Also please don't add guilt about your children to your list. They will be okay, if you love them and seek help for yourself.