Hi
I need some help for my PTSD and don't know where to start.
I have tried to get help/ help myself in the past and I have been unsuccessful.
I'm in the UK, when I saw my GP in the past he put me on antidepressents and refered me to psychologist and psychiatrist.
I found it too hard to talk about what happened to me, that I shut down and discharged myself.
I tried again with a private therapist, but the same thing happened.
When I'm 'well', I somehow manage to push it all away ('put a lid on things'). I accept my aviodance and social withdrawl as who I am and get on with things the best I can.
Then something will happen, some trigger, that sparks a flashback.
Sometimes it is just a one off but other times it spirals out of control.

Right now, the insomnia and nightmares are back at night and my day is filled with intusive thoughts, flashbacks and anxiety.
Phew.... I'm not very good at admitting to all this.

Anyway. I think it's time I stopped sticking my head in the sand and get some help. Obviously my negative experiences of past help are a sticking point, but I don't know where to start, what sort of help to seek, and where to look.
Any suggestions?

cherryblossom