Hi Cherry, one thing that you can do is print out what you just wrote and hand it to your doctor. Also, print out anything in your trauma diary and give it to your doctor/therapist. It is partly their responsibility to get you feeling comfortable enough to talk. They shouldn't push you if you are not ready though.

I have a thread recently where I felt I don't connect with my therapists and have been through about 12-15 throughout my life and always ended the relationships. I never talked about my trauma with them. I would just complain about drama I created for myself as a coping tool.

Finally, I got lucky and my aunt referred me to one of her friend's who helped me. However, after she retired I haven't been able to connect to anyone until just recently (3 months ago).

Good luck
Tammy