Hiya
Im new here and Im so sorry to hear about what you have been through. My situation wasnt exactly the same. I was spiked with date r**e drugs so at first i wasnt aware about it but later he told me what he had given me and made me drink a lot more. So much so that i overdosed. These people have control issues which is now an issue i have problems with. They think that the only way to feel strong is to control others but its not. They are also scared - for different reasons - police in both of our cases (the drugs gave me amnesia for 12 years). Its put me right off all drugs including meds. I hope you find a way to cope with this hun. Let me know when you do... coz you will... We all will... even if we cant see how. Never give up hope. Gawd i should listen to my own advice lol.

Take care