I started therapy for PTSD again in August after doing nothing for many years. I went back to church hoping some spirituality would help me. I can't seem to get myself together at all. My memory and thought patterns are irratic to the point that it is even obvious to ME. I am trying to do the "group" thing with the intensive out-patient program as I just got out of the hospital last Wednesday. I feel like I am lost in the room. I have found no one in my area who has experienced anything close to what I'm dealing with. How can I expect them to understand what they don't know about?

I went to group today for the 1st time. In one group, we played word games like "who or what am I"..... Huh? Did I miss something? Why are we literally playing games? I found myself getting irritable & annoyed. I am not a "group" person at best, much less playing games. I have always held my story close to me & simply going to group already feels like an intrusion.
Am I trying to ride a dead horse? If anyone has some insight, please share it with me. I don't know how to get out of this black ugly hole.