I was sexually abused by one of my brothers since I could remember at 7 years old. He is deceased now was killed at 28. His mother-in-law helped in this because he was physcially abusive to her daughter. My concern is that I do not have bad feelings toward him as I do my uncle who sexuallyabused me and my mother for not protecting me when she felt something was not right. My brother was physcially abused from my parents at a very early age. He was older than me but I was told at 3 years old, he was not fully potty trained and my dad would dress him up as a girl for punishment and prance him down the street introducing him as his daughter. At 3 he changed the channel on the tv and my dad through a glass ashtray hitting in the the head. He was taken to the hospital for stitches than after arriving home the cellar door wasn't closed and he fell down the stairs and had to go back to the hospital for more stitches. This was before child abuse laws were in full affect. My question is, why don't I have bad feelings for him after what he did to me? Is it because I had compassion for him for what my parents put him through and understood he had mental problems? I have been in therapy for many years but have told nobody about the lack of not being upset with my brother for what he did to me.
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