I'm so sorry to ask for help its not the way I am. I hate attention but I have no other option at the moment. I( am not suicidal but the next worst thing. I just got back from the new counsellors and it was soooo traumatic. I feel disgusted with being me, I hate me and i dont want to be me anymore. I want the feelings to stop but they never will. I want to turn back time so that i can change what happened but i cant. aaaaaaaargggggggggggghhhh. Is there anyone out there who is strong enough just to listen. You dont even have to say anything back apart from that you are listening. I just need to not feel this awful loneliness.