Thank you so much veiled. Ihope you are right - i so want to believe you are right but its impossible for me to feel like that right now. I told my new counsellor EVERYTHING. and i mean everything. and it made me feel so bad and like im a waste of space and effort. I wish i didnt think that though. I wasnt aware there were coping techniques for sessions. Please tell if ok. She is now the only one who knows everything and i wish i hadnt said anything at all. She was nice and said a lot of nice things about me but i just dont agree with her about them. All i want to do is rip my head off so that i can stop thinking. Not gonna happen tho is it so that makes me even more depressed. Thank yiou ever so much for just listening. It really does mean the world to me coz i no u do understand what it can be like.