Thank yo ever so much claire. Im just so mixed up right now. I told her every little detail of what happened. There were some words i couldnt say and she filleed in the blanks and i nodded. So many flashbacks during that session. I just want it all to go away now. Too much going on in my head and it wont stop. It scared me beyond belief. But i went there with the intention of getting it all out in the open and thats what i did so i should be proud of myslef. I'm just not capable of seeing the benefite or of thinking anything positive about myself at the moment. And i just feel liike im living in eternal hell. I feel like everything that happened was my own fault even though i no i shouldnt. just cant help those feelings and emotions right now. How do i stop the thoughts going round and round my head now. The only way i no is to slap myself and thats not really working. I took on too much by getting it all out. I'm completely flooded and overwhelmed. Thank you for listening it really does help to no im not alone.