Hello, well I totally understand that. I used to feel the same way whenever I explained my crash to anyone. Guilt was the main emotion and shame. Although I had no reason to feel either. I still do sometimes too.

It does feel overwhelming, you did well to tell her everything in the first session, she cant help you if she doesnt know. Yes, you can be proud of yourself but I know it doesn't feel like that. You have started the ball rolling though. You've let her in, put your cards on the table. Now I think you need to slow down and look after yourself. I find it easiest if I think of myself as a young child when I'm really bad. If a young child came to you after a traumatic experience how would you help them? Just basic things like, warmth, comfort, quiet.

You can get better and you have done something very brave today.

On the forum there are lots of different people, all at different stages of healing. Some can and will help and some cant at the moment. It doesn't mean they dont care or aren't with you.