Told her all the things i was made to do and all the things i wished i had or hadnt done. Told her about how he killed me and ended up scratching myslef on the face ( no marks though). She said i was brave and defiant and that she respected me for that but i dont feel brave. Not one little bit. Just feel worthless. Why doers ity have to be this hard. I thought i was making the right decission in confronting the issues but now wish i hadnt. Havent i suffered enough? Am i just making things worse for myself? Maybe i deserve to suffer more. But i dont want to. I'm going mad no - ive already gone mad. So very scared that ill get committed.