Telling her was very brave, and very awesome work! You obviously had to get out of you and did! Also, you must of had good vibes from her to be able to. Great job! So many do not tell everything and lay their cards on the table with those that are supposed to help. Now she will know exactly what needs to be addressed.

In doing that though it completely reasonable to feel like you were just run over. That is really a huge thing you did. Pat yourself on the back when you feel better, and you will.

One of the things I learned was with all this bile (horrible emotions of trauma) in me it ate me alive. In therapy I spoke about it until blue in the face and listened to many takes on it and why I hang on to many thinking styles and why. The better ones sunk in eventually. I got it out of me so much it also no longer festered. But talking about at first made me very ill, it was like having to relive it over and over.

For those times what worked for me was a variation of things and it changed over time. Like, at first they medicated me. I went off of meds as I got better with my other skills. Mind you this took over a year to wean me off as I was heavily addicted. If you are not on meds this can be good as you will not have to deal with addiction on top of it.

I learned and still often practice CBT skills. If you need I can further explain this. Practice self talk! You tell yourself something enough you will believe it. Right now you are saying it won't end. What I did was take post it notes and stuck two different colors where I spent most of my time. One color write out my negative thinking statement I was telling myself. On the other challenge it and put a positive statement instead. So anytime I had the bad thought I could look up and immediately see the positive to counter it with. OK, not great for decor but it helped me a lot.

My intrusive thoughts were overkill when I felt bad, like most symptoms... So I found a bunch of guided imagery. It is like a story someone tells you about yourself. It is very useful on the road to learn meditation. I listen to it often as if I just have music my mind goes out the door most of the time but I am much better with it now. With the person talking in a soothing voice I can concentrate on what they are saying enough and try to see it in my head it is like my mind does not have time to turn it into something bad. It takes practice but if you listen to the story voice you do not have much room for the rest to creep in. IMO excellent teaching tool. This is great to bring down anxiety levels and calm you.

Herbal teas. I have heard great stories on Kava but chamomile tastes so much better, does not have same health concerns, and for me chamomile and peppermint worked a helluva lot better.

Walk. Just try to get some exercise. You will likely not feel up to dancing, but try some silly beaty music and try to clean house. You may just find yourself doing a little extra wiggling and can does wonders for your mood. Will you WANT to do this. Unlikely. For me it can be like pulling teethe. Once started though you do feel improvement. Plus it always feels wonderful when the house sparkles.

Avoid coffee and cokes. Most don't do this but for me this is a very sketchy area. I try to drink it here and again recently. Sometimes it is OK, sometimes I get sick as a dog.

Scented bubble bathes. I still do this a few times a week. Extra 10 or 20 minutes in there enjoying it is so little time and so worth its soothing effects. Johnson's lavender baby lotion for bed time has a very calming effect on me... Speaking of which I need to add that to my grocery list :)

Make sure you are getting plenty of fresh veggies. This does make a difference. I am not a huge veggie fan but I love salsa so I make a couple quarts of fresh so all I have to do is open the fridge and grab when I do not want to cook.

If you do not have agoraphobia then treat yourself. Go buy yourself something small and frivolous. Reward yourself after therapy for the hard work you put in. You deserve it. Not pricey just something little you would not normally buy. Even a candy bar ;)

If I think of more I will let you know. Good luck. You did great at your appointment!