Oh that's interesting. Though you don't hurt yourself when you run though? At least it doesn't sound like it. I seem to space out and not care what happens to me. Like for instance, when I ran off shortly after my brother's death, I walked all night on the highway, and then hitched a ride with a trucker. I was totally numb and I didn't care what happened to me. I know I was in shock from Brian being dead but I seem to always do that, just kind of dissociate or something when I am running and I end up sick or in danger.