I sought help one day after skipping stones, I was asking myself, what is the positive to ptsd, hyper vigilance, non-trust, no closeness etc etc etc all negatives. I had gotten extremely angry and irritated, I usually solve my own problems.
I went to a place and ask a friend, what is the benefit to my past? He asked did I ever let anyone do what they did? , Of course a resounding and immediate No! flew out of my mouth. I was told by him, no one can ever take from you, what you did not give.
I said to him, yes but as an adult I do have sex. He said, yes sex, you don't know how to make love, you were never taught.
I asked him, so what you are saying is I am still a virgin? He said yes.
It was a bandaid I needed more then anything in my life at that moment.
I walked away a recognized virgin, and from that point on, it mattered who I had sex with.
Born again virgin,
Donna-Lynne