Thanks for all the words of hope and all the advice you have given me. I know you are right about me letting hubby in and im going to try to do that more - starting when he sets home from lunch - going to try and be brave enough to tell him about this site and that i think it would do both of us good for him to come here and join if he wants to. He definitely deserves the trust - i love him more than anything. Its not fair of me to not let him in and i really want to. Its just ever so hard. Here's hoping i dont chicken out.
Take lots of care of you