Hi
I blocked out all memories for 12 years and then suddenly they came back bit by bit within the space of a couple of months. I hate knowing what happened but i know that seeing as i do know, ignoring them isnt going to help me recover. There are still a couple of hazy bits. I know roughly waht happened with these but no details and not what order in. I want to know about every little detail even though i know i will hate it. Does that make sense? I just think that for me i would rather know and deal with it (no matter how hard) so that i can start to heal. I worry that if i dont remember all of the hazy bits then, if i do heal, that later in life they will come back and i will have to start all over again with the healing. Just my personal opinions and worries but it is different for all of us.