Hi,
I recently found out that my little sister was ganged raped when she was 13 and one of the attackers (I don't know who they are) convinced her that I sent them after her. I talked to her for the first time in 3 years (she ran away from home when she was 15...bad behavior as a result of the assault, I'm sure) and I can tell she's ambivalent about believing I had nothing to do with it...she's been completely brainswashed.
Anyway, that's the backstory. I guess the reason I'm posting is because I keep reliving it for her. I only know the race of the men, how many there were and the general location of where it happened...nothing else....but I keep thinking about it....everytime I close my eyes I picture her and I keep trying to figure out HOW it happened...if she screamed....that kind of thing... and it's driving me crazy. Any sister would grieve, but having severe PTSD due to my own sexual abuse when I was five makes it worse, I'm sure. I'm angry for her....I feel responsible for not being able to help...and to make it worse, I'm starting to get panic attacks when I see men of the same race...I don't know how to stop it... If anyone has any advice, I'd be more than open to trying out whatever you suggest.....

Thanks for listening,
Yaya