Kathy, I can absolutely understand what your saying, and the best thing is... your feeling and expressing what you feel. I agree with you, that Colin is going to growup extremely fast from this. He will be a different person when he comes home, we all know that from military backgrounds / family. Nothing I say will lessen your concern Kathy, though all I can say to prevent further complications with PTSD is to not let Colin get away with not talking about his emotions, what he feels surrounding any events he is involved or witnesses during deployment and so forth. It is off absolute importance that the family not allow him to get away with it, as you all have plenty of experience what occurs when a person lives in trauma, witnesses trauma, and may have a part in trauma, and not speak about what they feel afterwards.

Your a mum.... your supposed to be concerned, your supposed to be worried, your supposed to have sleepless nights when something like this happens. Just accept and recognise what is normal for you as a mother compared to anything irregular. Your doing just fine Kathy and I am glad Evie piped up and agreed she felt the same, as I knew she did. No doubt Jim has some feelings surrounding it, though his will be different due to his background.

Keep talking, keep venting, and glad your doing it already Kathy. Well done.