I am trying to do my diary, but not getting on with it very well.
PTSD symptoms are currently overwhelming.
This morning, I started to write, and I felt quite detatched. But writing about it changed that. I had the most horrible flashback, which ended in me being physically sick.

I just feel pathetic and useless for not being able to do this. It's in my head all the time - why is writing it down so hard? No wonder I've never been able to say the words out loud. I have written my story before (about 3 years ago I think), so why can't I write it again, without being physically ill?
I get really scared when the ptsd is as bad as this....