I don’t really sleep much atm. I find that I can’t get off to sleep because of anxiety and intrusive thoughts. If I do sleep, then I have horrible nightmares. Part of me doesn’t even want to sleep, because of the nightmares!
I guess one of my biggest problems in dealing with this is that I’m not very good at talking about things. Not very good at being open and honest about how I am. I’ve spent so long bottling things up and pretending everything is ok, that I’m not very good at opening up. It makes me feel really vulnerable. Like I am giving people ammunition to hurt me with.