Thanks for that advice Whitewolf. Yeh maybe you are right about the headmaster lol. I've never liked him.

I made it in to work in the end. Stayed up till 3.30 am doing the reports - just hope they make sense in the light of day. Everything turned out fine. I was so scared that the head would tell me off for not having done them, but instead, when i went to do them, there was already a message saying that i was ill and if parents wanted information about their child's progress then they should contact my boss. So there was really no need to worry. But i guess it was logical to be scared after that nightmare.

I saw the head today. I knocked on the office door of the deputy head and went in and the head was in there - i ran off. How daft is that? It was only a nightmare.

Got triggered badly a couple of times at work - a boy was talking about a girl having r***d someone and i just panicked. But i did get over it. Now i dont know what to do. I know i need to ask the kid what he was on about but i cant remember his face. Maybe i just blotted it out subconciously becasue i couldnt cope with the thoughts going through my head. I hope what he said wasnt true but if it was then i have let this other boy down. I'm so frustrated. Want to do something but don't think i can - not if i dont know who it was saying those words. I'm scared i have failed someone because i was too wrapped up in myself. I'm praying that he ws making it up or that it was something he saw on tv.

Anyway, i got through the day and loved the teaching. Still not looking forward to Monday but i'm not scared anymore. so that's good. I am sure that i will get scared of going back to work after the weekend (i normally do) at some point so your comments and advice will help with that. Thank you ever so much. Take care