Hiya Whitewolf
Yet more words of wisdom. I'm sorry to hear how bad your flash backs are. Luckily i dont mimic what happens in them i just end up screwing myself into a little ball and go insane. Sound like youve had one hell of a tough time with them. I know what you mean about getting them in a series. I have that too. I remember most of what happened to me through the flashbacks and one flash back just seems to trigger the next one... and the next one... and the next one.

I'm glad the meds help you and wish it was a route i was able to go down but i cant. I know i need them really - the doctor wants me back on them but im refusing. I still have some vallium left over so i have that as an option but again - too scared to take them no matter how hard things are. But yes, its nice to know they are there.

I have started a trauma diary which i have now had moved to private bacause i hope one day to pluck up the courage to invite my hubby here. I havent got very far with it but what i have done has helped with that bit.

I have always said that i would love to try group counselling but there is nothing around here. Its almost as if the world is saying - that doesnt happen to people from this area and that im the odd one out. I would love to meet people who have been through such trauma - not so we can all moan about what has happened but as you say to support each other and to help us realise that we are not alone. I am told the nearest group therapy is about an hour and a half's drive away. I would be prepared to travel that far but would mean that i would have to go during work time and im not sure how that would go down. Like a lead baloon i would imagine.

Than ks for your understanding, care and advice. It helps a lot. Take care