How kind on your part for such a nice response. I felt bad for my ex too. I tried to give him a family life a house, child, love ect. But no matter how I tried it didn't work. He always wanted the house neat and clean. I would wash the walls and ceilings down, cook him many Italian meals he enjoyed, do things with him and the kids but sorry to say he wouldn't even let his own kids in. No matter what I did for him it wasn't good enough. My step-son only has good memories of me spending time with him not his dad. I guess the more woman he had, the more like a man he felt. Bringing home diseases was not my type of marriage. He wanted to live with these woman at night and come home to me in the mornings. A dream like many men have not a dream as far as I was concerned. He would force down pills in my mouth so I would pass out and he could go out. I woke up to him many times slapping me in the face as he put himself in my mouth. He gave me pills once and told me they were Qualuds, they weren't. I wound up in the emergency room, the docs thought I was going to die. He almost let me drown in Lake Erie in front of the kids, laughing the kids were crying and screaming. My brother-in-law jumped in to save me. The poor guy was bruised and scratched up by time he got me in the boat. It was lightening, my ex said he would tow me in on a rope. My stories could go on and on. I don't think I had 1 peaceful year in my whole life after I was 5 years old. Years after I divorced him he got in a motorcycle accident almost died himself. I went running to his side. I found out I do care about him as nothing happening bad but not enough to love him as a woman.
sunnydaze