Thank you She Cat
I know you are right in saying that we wont get over it but will learn to cope. It just hurts so badly to think he sees me like that. Feels like he doesnt care at all. But i know he does really. He just doesnt understand. I allowed him in to try and help me. I never do that but i thought that maybe it was worth the risk. But now im learning that letting someone in is the wrong thing to do. And that really hurts. I feel so rejected after all my efforts to try and open up. Why do i even bother? It just compounds my thoughts that i should keep my mouth quiet. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Thought i was doing well and then this hits me in the face. Its not the fact that he said no to coming on here. Its the fact that he thinks im acting silly about my trauma. I'm not im just trying to survive the only way i know how. and he doesnt understand that...... right now im really going round in circles.