Awww thank you Ruddy.

I hadnt seen it like that. Maybe im just expecting too much from him. He could be frightened that he is losing me because i spend more time on here trying to sort my head out than i do talking to him at the moment. Maybe if he thinks he accepts that i have ptsd then he thinks... oh i dont know. but it is possible that hes in denial and that hes scared too. I can symathise with him if he's trying to hide from this problem. I need to be patient.

You look after yourself too. i know im not alone here.