Yes, I felt like his mom more than his wife. You have great insight. I always said you don't have to give birth to a child to love them as you were their mom. I know in reality I put myself in this drama because suferring from P.T.S.D, I wasn't choosie with my choise. I was not living my dream of escaping home life by finding a worse home life with a husband instead of parents. I thought for sure I could change him. Nobody can change anybody. When our daughter was born everynight, he would tell me when I woke up in the morning my baby would not be there. After losing 2 babies, he knew this would get to me mentally. I didn't sleep for many months if not years. I always worried about the baby I wanted so bad would go missing. But., as I said I wasn't in the real world I was in lah lah land. Know I am happy being married but P.T.S.D. doesn't allow me to be really happy with what I have. I live in darkness and pray one day I can pull myself out.
Thanks once again.
sunnydaze