whitewolf,
You are not alone. I hear you well. I remember too well. It hurts to think & "be". It will not go away & neither can we. We must persevere and tell as many people as we can, in whatever way we can. We will have more bad days than good no doubt, but we
have to hang on. We are linked to one another in pain. We must help one another thru the bad moments to the tolerable moments and simply know we are not alone. You are not alone.