Today has been particularly difficult for remembering Brian and dealing with his death. Evie has been quite out of sorts and if I am honest so have I. I am uncertain if it is being exacerbated by Colin's deployment, however today was quite painful. I have been in tears or on the verge of tears, off and on for the entire day. Tonight I was most grateful to have found some general editing duties to do upon the forum, as I needed something to distract me. Chronic distraction is not good, however tonight I simply do not want to think about my grief anymore. All day was long enough and I do so wish to have a break from this sadness!