may 93'
Emotional Shut down

Lets play a game, learned very well,
where good little girls, are sent to hell.

Let's play fair - I want to win,
they taught me evil, inside their cabin.

I bet you money, the gun's not loaded,
they should me before, that I won't be exploded.

Now you be 6, and so will I,
tied up on beds, but don't dare cry.

They click the chamber, pass out from fear,
they teach me shut down, then they laugh and they sneer.

They live in this world, they will use your child,
if hawk eyes blind you,
The kid will grow wild.

So see how I've learned, this game so well,
Mommy had fun, while they taught me their hell.

Now you be 30, that's where I am now,
but flashbacks flash me back,
two years old, pow pow pow.

Now Daddy's gone,
she let him die,
she always laughs,
everytime I cry.

Can we pick a person to blame,
for making me the President of the Hall of Shame.

Who'll get the credit, I'll donate today,
where venom can't live, in my world, to stay.

It's 69', get the picture,
They missed nam, the u.s. is homebase,
But they gave me their guns, in my mouths (vag, too) and my face.

Roaming to safety, BillyJack said can't be found, (BillyJack 71' movie)
that line scares me, cause my angers tightly wound.

So show me the heaven they say is here on earth,
letme decide to believe you- me deciding your worth.
I was taught by the best, the best of the bad,
Emotional shut-down, the lone she-wolf-oh, so sad.....

(Wails of crying in background, voice of the Donna as a small child begins)

Please paint me a picture, with softness and strength, so I grow tall,
That she-wolf scares me, no love for her at all,
Let her learn to dial, learn to call,
She needs help- and I am too little.
But I know what I know- her heart shell is brittle.
Can you see her eyes, I turn away, cause they make me cry, should I look and stay.
Her name is Donna, and she's just my size,
Old souls are made from pain, her pain made her wise.
I think I see, a sparkle igniting, just now, in her eyes!!!!
Oh God, I love you, you said if I pray, you'd help Little Donna's pain go away.
She's laughing and singing, there's even people around, she's not hiding,
from the branching in which she is swinging.
Oh God I love you, so much more then before, cause she conquered the battle, and got up from the floor.
I love you, I love you, she's dancing and leaping,
she loves you, she loves you, shes mine for the keeping,,,,
tightly- in your arms- God
dlj