I concur Kathy.... everyone deserves a break from sadness at times, and your dealing with that typically.... so enjoy your break please. Sorry that you feel so sad Kathy.... I know your going to get much better quite soon though. Nobody can tell you to stop hurting Kathy, because that is your choice and it depends on the reasons you hurt, ie. punishing yourself or just sadness for not having Brian with you. Big difference between the two though. Please take care of yourself Kathy.... you have a rough ride still ahead yet.