I believe you may have answered your own question here. Perhaps you are having difficulty accepting your diagnosis? That is completely understandable, especially given you have just been diagnosed! To use my daughter again as an example, she was diagnosed in 2002 however did not begin working upon herself until 2006. Many do not accept the diagnosis immediately or do anything about it immediately either. You should give yourself credit for being here so soon.

To be frank, I do not see the in-group, out-group dynamic happening here at all. There are many new members at present and all are welcomed warmly. I do not consider you an outsider. Perhaps it is more you personally feel like an outsider because you question some of the views being discussed here.

Personally I believe it is best to know completely what you are dealing with, and the sooner the better. That may be painful to some, however it is important to have as much information as possible if you truly wish to heal.

Management is not a cure. As I mentioned previously, if my daughter exposed herself to certain situations, she would backslide. In fact, her former psychiatrist, a PTSD specialist, told her she would have to avoid certain situations (in her case involving weapons) for the rest of her life. So, she needs to avoid military ceremonies, rifles and so on. She will not be going hunting with my husband, for example. However that does not mean she cannot have a good life. A parallel is diabetes. Diabetes can be managed with diet and insulin, and the diabetic can have a very good life. However, the moment they stop their diet and medication regimen, they become ill, as diabetes is not yet curable.

I also strive for balance. That is why I have hope for a cure, however I do so realistically, as I can only live for today and not 5 years nor 20 years in the future! For who knows when we will have a cure. It could be tomorrow, but it mightn't be for several years either.

Thank you for your wishes for my family.