hiya
I know what you mean about being one person on the inside and a totally different one on the outside. The outside person is just like a mask for your real self? Thats how it is with me anyway. So you arent alone in feeling like that.

This site has helped me to realise that although it may be hard, i have to learn to take off that mask and face things. i need to stop pretending becasue its not doing me any favours. But we are all different. I hope you find the right way for you to recover too. This an excellent place to start so well done for taking the first step.

Take care