i never realised so many people are suffering,i have read a few of the threads etc on here,it is quite harowing,but i notice we all have these awful same type of symptoms.it is a great comfort to me that at last after all these years someone can atually relate to what it is i am saying and feeling.Family try to understand i know,but they cannot fully understand what it feels like inside you.I did try talking to a pshycologist,i managed two sessions,i just couldnt deal with it,she seemed very dissmisive of me when i said i just couldnt do what she was asking me too.I still after 5 years havnt been back to where the attack took place!although it is only 2 miles from my home.This is a huge deal for me,people say it is where i should start,mmmmmmmm.........