Just an update:

My h got stuck at work and wasn't able to make it to the session last week but I think that turned out for the best. I was able to speak with the therapist freely about how everything is making me feel without having to worry about it effecting him. I was also able to discuss my h's worries over the effect therapy would have on his career (after 8 years in, he plans to see it through to retirement) and the therapist was able to help in that area. Since we came to him about marital problems, he would continue to treat "marital problems" and said nothing about the PTSD would go in the file if my h didn't want it to. He said he's had to do this for several other military, police, border patrol, etc. When I left I set an appt. for my h as just in case he remained open to the idea of going. I was so excited the rest of the day. So hopeful!!!

The conversation came up later that night about the session, and I asked if he knew the therapist was a veteran. That opened another door for him, I think. To make a long story short, he wanted to make an appt. and was even commenting about not being suprised if they put him on meds (something he's very much against....he hates even taking asprin) and that if it'll help him, he'll try it. Basically, he seems to have opened to the idea quite a bit since reading all the symptoms.

Also, the last week has been really nice. I can see he's making an effort, a very large one, to keep his temper under control. He didn't even yell at my son once last night - and there were plenty of times I was cringing, just waiting for it. And all this after he had a bad day at work. Usually a bad day equals an awful one at home. I know it's hard for him but he seems to be trying.

So, that's where we are right now. I'm interested to see how Monday will go (his appt.) but am enjoying the slice of peace I've had lately :)