Extremely busy week. Our fairly new front-loader washer broke and is now useless. With children and as much laundry as I do the time it will take to replace it, will mean loads and loads of piled-up dirty laundry ahead.

Had dye shot into me yesterday and have since been peeing neon yellow. Was quite lucky however yesterday as fluro-angiogram specialist directed me to prep with steroid and benedryl before test; I did not get hit with extreme naseau, dry-heaving and the melting like butter to the floor (NO muscle tone) allergic reaction I had last time.

Tommorrow I must drive to the city for another eye doctors appt. myself. I'm going to do it. But quite honestly, I feel very leary and tense about having to do so.

Friday, we will dismiss the kids from school, and all drive there again. I probably should prepare myself to practice just being and not speaking that day, bc this appt. I am quite afraid of. Trying to practice letting go of control and simply going on blind-faith. However, I have this feeling, let's say fear, that I ought to get to a confession before going, bc the appt. includes a needle into my eyeball, which I've yet to have before, and quite naturally the doctors must list the possible many complications of such procedure, and yet it is not even treatment, rather it is research......which may prove pers. beneficial if it works w/o compl. and includes one of the 2, (out of a 3 possibility) of receiving medicine, which they want FDA approved.

Whatever............the good news today is though is that I am very happy about having succeeded in downloading a subscription to a library of large print and audio software books that I can access and read, or listen to, without too great of pain, frustration, stress and eye-strain. I started my first book, "Women Who Light the Dark" today and it is Most Interesting to me.