Recently my counselor was out on sick leave and I had some very important issues come up about my earliest traumas. There was a therapist on call so I set up an appointment.

Well, so far I've had two appointments with her and I feel like I've done more work in those appointments than I have the whole time I've been seeing my counselor. I have one more appointment with her then it's back to my regular counselor. The problem is, I don't want to go back to the way things were. I want to work through some of my issues, BUT... I don't want to hurt my counselors feelings by telling her this.

I know that it's my recovery on the line but, I just don't have the courage or heart to tell my counselor the truth. what the hell am I supposed to do about this? It's very frustrating and I feel like I'm gonna sacrifice myself in this situation. HELP!