Well it has been known for about a decade now (and I'm 22 so that's saying something) that I've suffered from MDD. However, I had thought I had it under control. I was taking a special compounded formulation of bupropion because I'm completely intolerant to serotonin and go into serotonin shock.

Because the last psychiatrist I saw prescribed this, and was extremely hesitant to increase it due to my extreme sensitivity to medications, it was never raised before he left last August. It was sitting at 50mg which is half the minimum dosage. Yeah... tis a wonder that this hasn't been going well?

Anyway, I see the psychiatrist for medications and more clinical related stuff - i.e diagnostics. I have started to see a clinical therapist as well, and she does the therapy portion. I feel like I will be getting a lot out of it. She does a modified version of Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT) (which is interesting to read about, at the least).

It did blindsight me. I thought it was just me. I thought I wasn't pushing myself hard enough. So I'm laying off for now. I'm going to focus on appreciating what I am doing instead of beating myself up for everything I'm unable to do now. And I am unable to do it. I get that. I didn't want to admit it - I don't want to admit that there are things I just can't handle right now but I'm staring it in the face and I'm pulling the layers off and stripping it down to what's really going on and it's not pretty but it's honest.

Taking those online tests every couple months is a good idea, especially seeing as I believe the psychiatrist wants to increase it again once I get settled on this dosage. It would let me be able to check in. Thanks for that - I'm programming it into my PDA.

Maybe in another thread you would open up about the things that have helped you with anxiety. I know I'm interested. Oh, and I don't think I welcomed you yet - Welcome to the forum.

Sincerely,

A. Lauren