If you can,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,it might be hard, when saddened, can you imagine the times he cracked you up, the times where he was so important in a situation, etc, and then feel joy that you are lucky to have those memories, that part of him will always remain in you, and try to end on what might seem impossible, a happy note, when the gloomy thoughts enter.
I have less then two years worth of memories of my dad, he died when I was 15, not his fault for not being around (mother's), but that I cherish each and every memory I have of him, and because he was in my life, I am so much a better person toward the world, as well as my brother, who passed when he was 35, he was my rock, and always will be.
No one can ever fill my father's shoe, nor my brother's. I thank God I had such beautiful real simple gentlemen in my life.
I feel for you, any loss is painful, I too, am going thru a burial right now.
Don't know your beliefs, but there is a saying " Let go, and let God" , meaning give to him your weakness and your burdens, so he can return you his strength, it doesn't always work for me, but when it does, ahhhhhhhhhhh.
I have you and yours in my prayers.
Donna-Lynne