Thank you Don

What you have said and suggested is ever so true. I want to give those ideas a go. I really do. But I'm so bad at opening up to anyone. I tried to open up to him last week and it didnt go well at all so the thought of opening up even more to him just makes me want to say "no - no way".

Maybe that is something that will change with time though. I really do hope so. It's just not an option right now unfortunately. But I will flag this post and look at it when one day I am feeling more confident about talking to him so please know that I am ever so grateful for your ideas and comments. It means a lot. Especially to hear it from a man's perspective.

Thanks again and take care.