Thank you for your thoughts Donna-Lynne and Morgan. Always appreciated.

I have been away for a few days, as Evie mentioned we completed a grieving exercise which was quite intense, and I thought it best to have a break from the forum whilst I sorted everything out in my mind. It was very painful, however I did make a major breakthrough, in that it "clicked" to me finally that Brian's death was not my fault, nor anyone's fault. Intellectually I had known this already, however this is the first time I truly believed it. It was a very liberating feeling.